Sudden tour to satkhira :: What was my target?

On 1 June Tuesday I have taken a sudden decision about to go to Satkhira. But anybody know why I have taken this decision. May be ‘Not’. Because in the mean time my mother has also come to Satkhira from our home village. I have said to all that I am going to meet my mother.

Whatever, this journey was for someone rather than my mother. Because I see mother & can see my mother regularly but I can’t see that person regularly even not after years not after months.

This satkhira journey was something strange to me also. Because she has called me before I come to Satkhira. I think that she really want to see me. But no. She actually wants me to say something that was really hurt me. When I come infront her, then she called her intimate person..tell story & show me how she loves him. What’s this?

I can’t understand why everything call me & show me the real shit. Actually from this journey I am taking & seeing some previous sorrow. What will be my mental situation after coming back to dhaka- only god knows. After all, I always like her.. love her but I know… It is now impossible to make it real.

Today I will go back to Dhaka & will also bring some extra & new version of sorrow.

Hey GOD…. Is it you..?…. who are doing all the things. Then, why all this things coming towards me. You don’t want me happy I know always know…. Hey GOD… How more time how much time you will stop all this things. I am really destroying.

Shaharia is a professional software engineer with more than 10 years of experience in the relevant fields. Digital ad certified, cloud platform architect, Big data enthusiasts, tech early adopters.